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Friday, October 29, 2004
DID I DREAM THIS?

Although it's been decades since I was a teenager scrawling song lyrics in my notebooks, imbibing lines from The Cure's and The Smiths' songs with importance of scripture as if it were written only about me and only for me... as if Morrisey and Robert Smith knew me. A self-obsessed teenager can hear "The upstairs room is cool and bright; We can go up there in summer; And dance all night" and find it to be eeeerily and tooootallly about them. (I remember angstily agonizing at the age of 13 of whether or not I would be willing to die to save Morrissy's life...whatever?)

But even now, in my mid-30s (perfectly mid) a song was cycling in my head as I sort-of slept from 3:30 AM until noon today, and I dreamt that I posted it here on my website and in my dream it was such an obvious message to America about our current politi-cultural climate.

For me, most Sonic Youth lyrics, and as with most dreams, seem to make perfect sense in one moment, and I'll believe I'm getting their meaning... until the next refrain or slippery interlude into a B-part, and I'll lose all pretense of understanding, and I'll come to believe they're just abstract word forms of sound and shape. Some SY lyrics include lines like Belly Flowers, Three feather, three-peice, ...get your hands off my tomato, glossaries injected daily...?...

But the Lee Renaldo-written song from my dream last night (track #8), and now awake today, does seem to be speaking to me, ...Eeeerily, tooottaallly It's message is so obvious and yet leaves a lot to one's imagination. But I'm sure it's saying something about our political climate, our anti-progress during the past 4-years of anti-leadership, the twin towers collapsing to the ground, ash and souls evaporating into the skies... and this post-911 culture, and the importance of this upcoming election.

Paper Cup Exit
Skimmin' the tops of tall trees
Through the clear light of free speech
A sudden memory disease
Claims the air all around me
I'm gettin' lost in the slipstream
Maybe relive the same dream
Of comin' in from the cold
And losin' half of my soul

Memory disease
Across united states
That I had told the truth
Feel so high
Architectural
I look to the skies
To see our bodies
They were rising up
Out of the paper cup
A sea change is due
I don't seem to you
Touchdown on the new mason-dixon
Line-up map was ripped and torn
Jilted frame with all hope gone

And I don't mind if you sing a different song
Sing a different song
Just as long as you sing
Sing along

It's later than it seems
It's later than it seems
It's later than it seems
Time everyone came down It's what you didn't say it's what you didn't say
Don't wanna be a slave
It's what you didn't—
Skimmin' the tops of tall trees
Through the clear light of free speech
I'm comin' in for a landing
I've got a soul understanding
It all comes down to a word
It's just like nothin' I heard
Over the rainbow in time
Will be one hell of a climb
Eye lights bright
The lights sweep high clear sky
Sky
Reminiscent
Of money in your eye
Unwind

I don't mind if you sing a different song
Sing a different song
Just as long as you sing
Sing along

It's later than it seems
It's later than it seems
It's later than it seems
New ears are listening
It's what you didn't say
It's what you didn't say
Don't wanna be a slave
It's what you didn't say
Nothing to give away
—lee renaldo and sonic youth
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Wow did you really read all the way down to here? It's a great song. Even better to hear than read. Speaking of dreams, Tod dreamt that the November 3 headlines read KERRY SWEEPS SWING STATES. If the Republicans' tawdry tactics at disenfranching us at the polls don't completely succeed, I think he'll prove to be prophetic. He and Zogby, both.
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Sunday, October 24, 2004
TODAY, I SLEPT TILL ONE.

When I gave my 'presentation' at the Apple store w/ other photobloggers recently, in introduction to my + Headphones Headshots project, I mentioned that I had been inspired to attempt this project in large part by my admiration for fellow-fotologger and acquaintance Gary (Mashuga), who compassionately and generously befriends and photographs homeless people. He helps them if they need or want it; he takes their portraits and posts them on his fotolog. By doing so, he brings their reality to the rest of the world, and does so with dignity and with humanity.

+ Today, NPR's All Things Considered features a peice on Gary aka + fotolog.net/Mashuga. This peice gave me chills and reinforced for me what I admire so much about Gary.
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Thursday, October 21
BULLETIN
KERRY WINS GONZO ENDORSMENT

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BULLETIN
KERRY WINS GONZO ENDORSMENT; DR. THOMPSON JOINS DEMOCRAT IN CALLING BUSH "THE SYPHILLIS PRESIDENT" "Four more years of George Bush will be like four more years of syphilis," the famed author said yesterday at a hastily called press conference near his home in Woody Creek, Colorado. "Only a fool or a sucker would vote for a dangerous loser like Bush," Dr. Thompson warned. "He hates everything we stand for, and he knows we will vote against him in November."

Thompson, long known for the eerie accuracy of his political instincts, went on to denounce Ralph Nader as "a worthless Judas Goat with no moral compass."

"I endorsed John Kerry a long time ago," he said, "and I will do everything in my power, short of roaming the streets with a meat hammer, to help him be the next President of the United States."

"...Bush is a natural-born loser with a filthy-rich daddy who pimped his son out to rich oil-mongers. He hates music, football and sex, in no particular order, and he is no fun at all."
Hunter S. Thompson in + Rolling Stone
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how about those red sox?

how about that kerry?

i think the sox winning is a good omen for all things Boston
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
One opinion about Bush: Senseless.
One fact about Bush: Speaker of non-truths

HEY BUSH. Quit exploiting SEPTEMBER 11 2001. Quit saying "WE WILL NEVER FORGET!" Guess what. Um, W? We haven't forgotten what you didn't do leading up to that day. That day we watched people dying out of our windows and on our TV sets while you sat stunned with your upside-down copy of MY PET GOAT, while real heros worked to save lives — Too late, Bush. We wish you hand instead chosen to read your memo: BIN LADEN SET TO ATTACK IN THE UNITED STATES.
You have no sense. One who believes in heaven and hell such as yourself might oughta be more careful.

NYTimes reported on Oct. 12 that states' homeland security, anti-terrorism funds are still being allocated in a pre 9-11 way, A SeptemberThe 11th Way, one might say. Alaska gets over $90 per person in anti-terror funds. NYC gets about $23/person. Good work Tom Ridge.

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to FUR or not to Fur: (UTILITY WITHOUT PROPOGANDA:) OR, SOME NON-ELECTION CONTENT FOR THE KIDS:
The Ethicist Randy Cohen provides guidance to the dillemma we've been agonzing over since last winter:
Is it OK to wear beautiful vintage Gucci coats which have fur collars, even when we find it cruel and misguided when folks buy or wear new fur coats? The handy argument for wearing the used coat with fur is this: It's old... The animal died long ago, and it was bought 2nd- or 3rd-hand. Shouldn't the animal not die in vain? Plus it's warm and did we mention the pockets are lined with velvet? And we didn't know that the material the rest of the coat was made out of was basically calf fetus. WE DIDN'T KNOW!
The Ethicis's advice: if you want to harm an animal, kick a poodle or something. However, if you don't feel that animal's death for 'fashion' is ethically OK, then you can't really wear the coat out in public (unless you shave into the fur: "VINTAGE, GIFT". He suggests if you can't part with the gift, or the object of beauty, find utility for it inside your home, but don't make a public statement that it is OK to kill animals for 'fashion'— not even if it's warm.
And the argument that taking this stance means you would have to give up leather and become a vegetarian also?? He covers that, too.
Listen online: + http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=4113413(npr)
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+ Paul Shabroom: Meetings.
To coincide with the publication of his new book, Meetings, Shambroom will convene a Virtual Town Meeting at the Apple Store in SoHo, Wednesday, October 20. Political bloggers and photobloggers will share their photographs and postings of democracy at work in the virtual community—an exercise of civil liberties during this politically charged time. Photobloggers presenting will include: Jake, Mike Epstein, Rion, and Shepard.
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While it's true that if you watch Alexandra Pelosi's Washington-insider documentaries, he seems actually like a sweetheart, the truth is much darker:
HOW CARL ROVE DOES IT: HIS SIGNATURE WHISPER-CAMPAIGN OF LIES:
....la la la, a long article, you might choose to read it ... basically: "What Rove does," says Joe Perkins, [he worked for Rove] "is try to make something so bad for a family that the candidate will not subject his family to the hardship..." [by running in any further elections] [ie:] "Mark is not your typical Alabama macho, beer-drinkin', tobacco-chewin', pickup-drivin' kind of guy. He is a small, well-groomed, well-educated family man running for Judge, and what [Rove] tried to do was make him look like a homosexual pedophile. That was really, really hard to take."
TheAtlanticMonthly
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go red sox

go kerry

i don't even really like boston
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+ Kerry vs Bush on the Environment
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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOW EMAIL ME

john a. i tried to call you. i called the number that the old number's recording said was the new number. chet akins answered the phone. he said i had the wrong number. happy birthday. are you in holland? happy birthday.

Headphones Headshots was down due to high traffic and low bandwidth allocations. It is now back up. Thanks to everyone who has linked to it... Sorry for that lame outage. Why do servers, email, internet access, vonage, and cellphone service all breakdown in the same week? What's next? My cable bill hasn't been paid in ages. It could go any day. But my banjo? It's still up.
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+ bali is beautiful as are bathing barely-wed beauties.
congrats viktor and allison.
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+ gal made her own shoes. How cute are those? (via catwoman)

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go red sox

go kerry

i'm not even from boston

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feel crappy blogging about this. feels inappropriate and flatly insufficient. but want to express my sincere and deepest condolonces to my dear friend erin and whole family at this sorrowful time.

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Sunday, October 10, 2004
CITY SUCKER, IS MORE LIKE IT.

Can't seem lately to dive, delve or dip into pursuits beyond the biggest project of my web-making life (coming soon), learning Duelling Banjos, and keeping up on current politics ~ at least until November 2nd. After which I hope to just maybe, I don't know, go to Mexico and relax for a bit and not think about anything politcally-related.

+ Gerrymandering is quietly, but dramatically, eroding the face of democracy (in our own nation) (BBC)

I know. Tons of articles out there now about the bulge in the back of the Bush during debate 1. Most of them inconsequential. Who cares anyway if he had a radio box? I don't, we all know he has trouble... speaking... sentences. Who can blame 'm for trying a Milli Vanilli? But why do W's people deny it? I saw that rectangular box in his back during the live feed (the photos on the internet are all very bad... it was so there. so rectangular. so obvious.) I figured it was a bulletproof vest, seeing as this was one of the few public appearances Bush has made in front of a crowd of folks who weren't required to take a vow of allegiance to him and his party to be in attendance... putting him in front of potentially un-likeminded folks could be dangerous, especially with the lapse of the assault weapons ban.
+ But the Salon article is the best so far.
RELATED:
+ NPR on the President's tactics to keep doubters away from "public" rallys (NPR audio)
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MORE BAD NEWS:
Fake public service announcements promote Bush Agenda, paid for by your tax dollars, suckers
+ 2nd Bush Ad Surfaces on TV disguised as News Story (myway.com)

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AND NOW THE GOOD NEWS:
+ Have a few dollars and want to make a donation towards a specific project that a teacher needs help funding in the classroom? Hello, DonorsChoose.org. Brilliant. Top needs: literacy, arts, sciences, athletics...

+ Jaws in 30 seconds, reenacted by bunnies (via swatt) See 'more bunnies!' links at bottom of page.
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Monday, October 4, 2004
GET YOUR QUOTE ON.

+ IN THEIR OWN WORDS by Tom Tomorrow a salon.com cartoon

Speaking of Tomorrow, JPG MAG photo submissions due by (correction):
October 4,TONIGHT, AT MIDNIGHT.

+ he forgot poland

+ Poland may leave Iraq by close of '05 —CNN

+ How do you run a convention on a record of failure? (Quicktime movie) Hilariously nauseating.

+ Make a small donation to help run Cindy Sheehan's anti-war ads in swing states. Cindy lost her son in Iraq. Click to watch ad. .
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Friday, October 1, 2004
OH OCTOBER

Again thanks Rion & Jake for organizing and bringing so many people together at the Photobloggers-2 Apple event last night (joe's crowd shot). Again It was fun. Thanks to *everyone* who came. Thanks for the drinks, Gothamist. Jake sure does good coverage, and Ixtayul too.

The headphones-headshots project I showed last night is posted here, NOW WITH the captions introducing the people and the music they were listening to and what they ate for breakfast.
Also thanks to all the people I met in the subway and on the streets who cooperated with the project and allowed me to photograph them. (Thanks dear C for the handy php.)

MORE COVERAGE HERE:
swimming with razorfishes, what i see... et more from rion and jake's sites.
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