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I STILL THINK THAT'S TUESDAY's HEADER IS RELEVANT/
Thursday, 20 Sept '01

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I feel older.
I feel older in that burdened way.
Heavier, like we've lost our innocence.
I don't mean innocence like the opposite of guilty.
I think I mean older in the way that I feel less frivolous.
Heavier not just with grieving. But in a way that won't lift. Like, a tree's trunk can only grow bigger around, (layered cyclically) never smaller. Layers don't peel off.

Older in the way you notice that you're older, as it happens to you one day in your life. Maybe say in the way that you've moved out of your parents' house. You're living on your own now and earning your own money, paying for your own life, and before you run out the door towards some, like, group fun thing, you stop to turn off the light switches.

And you notice this. One day. You are older. As you hear maybe your dad's voice, reminding you that electricity costs money, you still feel like his daughter, but you now understand. Really for the first time. And see, now you're older. And you won't go back to that innocence.

You're burdened by experience.

That is a flimsy comparison. i know.

But also, i feel we're all tenderized now. More sensitive. More tender. We tough skinned street smart new yorkers need gentle exchanges.

If you're still looking: David Galagher posted some nice photos last week.

oh, and thanks, phome!


UM, MAKE LOVE, NOT WAR/
Tuesday, 18 Sept '01

This was the message on my tea bag just now:
"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."
  --Mahatma Gandhi

My Lost City: New York Blogs and Journal Accounts of the WTC disaster

have you seen this photo of lower Manhattan by satellite? or this photo of this hero?

fireman taking a rest break

people watching the disaster site
I took some pics from Houston street on Wed. Sept 12.


That's my hand: A view of the former towers, from the patio of our favorite Diner, in South Williamsburg.

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+ WTC Attacked, real-life Nightmare:[Sept 17 '01]
+ Bad dreams and Polly Jean : [Sept 06 '01]
+ Sharks on the beach : [Sept 03 '01]
+ Naming the Tiny Destroyer : [aug 14 '01]
+ In the pines, in the pines : [aug 08 '01]
+ In the cracks : [july 22 '01]
+ Home to Bloom; Home to Bkln : [july 11 '01]
+ You can quote me : [july 6 '01]
+ Me and Bridget, by the Bridge : [june 30 '01]
+ Dropped it, ate it anyway : [june 21 '01]
+ Deep into the Moroccan medina : [june 15 '01]
+ Arlo ran away, got fired from job : [may 19 '01]
+ Art opening Sightings : [may 12 '01]
+ Thumbs Up on Broadway : [may 11 '01]
+ My Own Mirror Project : [may 10 '01]
+ meet Trixie : [may 07 '01]
+ billboard giantess : [may 03 '01]
+ pierced and chained boobs? : [may 01 '01]
+ Years of NYC residue : [apr 27 '01]
+ Willie and wieners : [apr 23 '01]
+ rolling the street cart : [apr 20 '01]
+ BROOKLYN jackhammers : [apr 19 '01]
+ easter day was one of drinking : [apr 16 '01]
+ my blood was let : [apr 12 '01]
+ THIS PLACE IS SO 5 MINUTES AGO : [apr 3 '01]
+ help is on the way : [mar 30'01]
+ a love letter to... : [mar 27'01]
+ big afro in the Bleecker station: [mar 20'01]
+ the progress of hangingout: [mar 14'01]
+ i can rap, you know: [mar 13'01]
+ hitchhiking, snowboarding: [mar 09'01]
+ candid new york: [feb 27 '01]
+ i drank 3 beers: [feb 16 '01]
+ giant twat pear: [feb 12 '01]
+ cat fight : [feb 11 '01]
+ babies and brandons: [feb 08 '01]
+ if we took a holiday. holiday: [feb 03 '01]
+ join me in my egofest: [feb 02 '01]
+ beaucoup des phoblography: [jan 30 '01]
+ ...it was, like, just yesterday: [jan 29 '01]
+ i was vaguely grim: [jan 27 '01]
+ eqb's soul was found: [jan 18 '01]
+ some things were found: [jan 16 '01]
+ what is hot? what is not?: [jan 13 '01]
+ this was the first of the year: [jan 01, 01]
+ because i care about you: [dec 26, 00]
+ read last week's entry: [dec 19, 00]
+ because: [dec 12, 00]
+ you never know: [dec 05, 00]
+ what you're missing: [nov 29, 00]
+ it all started here: [nov 22, 00]

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Strapless Jeans Dress on a downtown train. [enlarge]

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On S. Kent Avenue, Bklyn [enlarge]

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